>age
33
>money situation:job/uni/neet
make ~150k+/yr - depends on overtime
engineer, in grad school (professional program while working
>height
5'9"
>picture or looks/10
5-6
have been told I am attractive or decent looking
>dick size
smallish (~5-5.5 in x 4 in)
>reason for inceldom

>never tried for a relationship
>thought I'd meet a girl by chance through friends/work/etc
>neverhappened.jpg
>began to socially isolate self in college over a >sense of shame over my life - related to the lack of relationships and lack of career at time
>watched everyone I know slowly get married or have kids
>made me feel worse about myself by comparison
>introspected about why i ended up in my current situation
>feedback loop of rumination and introspection
>further decided to socially withdraw out of a sense of shame to avoid making others feel a sense of pity or awkwardness
>never tried online dating
>view self too inadequate to deserve a relationship now
>too old to explain away experience
>view self as too boring after years of anhedonia
>work a job with few women - very odd/demanding hours
>was overweight/chubby most life until got fit in late 20s.
>short
>never leave house other than work or gym
>invisible to women, not even considered a prospect
>don't want a hook-up - want a relationship >likely overlooked flirting due to that and self-hatred, as don't believe any compliments are genuine. usually believe they are social niceties or hold ulterior motives
>avoid letting anyone close as assume they will see how terrible i actually am

mainly just depression and self-hatred. possibly mild avoidant personality disorder (though I don't like labels - was diagnosed long ago but don't trust the mental health system here)

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